lost & found

yeah, uh, well... sorry i haven't been writing much. things at work have been exhausting and the days have been slipping away in blur. when i finally get home at night, i spend way too much time on the couch, curled up in a blanket, addressing envelopes or cutting out paper flower petals,... and not enough time thinking, or dreaming, or cleaning my apartment.

(ok, the apartment isn't so bad - i'm exagerating)

i'm not totally sure why the lack of interest in anything having to do with my computer -- aside from the fact that i'm on one ALL FREAKIN DAY LONG. i am growing to hate this thing. resent it. why does it have to offer me so much and yet make me so miserable because i end up not moving for 8 hours?

i need a setup where i can be on my computer while walking a treadmill that morphs into a stationary bike that morphs into a seat that morphs into a bouncy ball, all the while retaining the ability to stably and effectively get work done.

sigh.

i can't wait for the holidays -- if nothing but for being away from my desk for 10 days. 10 glorious, glorious, desk-free days!