things i don't understand
i don't understand...
... why we keep having lows in the 40's. isn't it august right now?
... why strawberries in california taste better now than they did in march
... why i seem to like the duck confit that conor made
... why my hair doesn't want to be curly now that it's only 6 inches short
another set of things i don't understand is related to a recent discovery that a colleague hates me. and i mean passionately. i mean, to the point where i think they probably have mean nicknames for me when i'm referred to among their friends (which actually isn't hard, since all you need to do is take the g out of my name and you get the word "mean").
i actually sensed it all along -- but for my sources to prove it to me once and for all just leaves me baffled. i guess i just don't totally understand...
... why.
... what triggered it
... why i keep thinking about it
... why it surprises me
it's less the shock value of this particular person that keeps the discovery replaying in my head, and rather the haunting thought that tons more people might be hiding passionate distaste for me, to my complete oblivion.
its a bit unsettling to meander through life thinking you're a relatively nice, likable, easy-going person -- only to find that you apparently made someone's skin crawl.
is it my problem for not noticing? or their problem for being uber-passive aggresive, and never telling me/bringing it to my attention? i would think that if we'd could address it appropriately, then maybe we'd both enjoy our jobs a little more. but i guess that would be too much to ask.
i kind of think that people who carry that much hate in their lives don't WANT to resolve issues -- they get pleasure out of finding a few people to despise. it's like, they're in love with the art of hating.
huh. that's a sad thought.
but clearly i can't do anything to help!
they'd probably spit in my eye.
i guess i'll just go back to being perplexed about trivial things like weather and the quality of produce. everything else seems to make sense in my life -- and i'm very lucky to have someone who loves me as unconditionally as my fiance does. so who cares about immature colleagues?
back to eating these deliciously perplexing strawberries!
... why we keep having lows in the 40's. isn't it august right now?
... why strawberries in california taste better now than they did in march
... why i seem to like the duck confit that conor made
... why my hair doesn't want to be curly now that it's only 6 inches short
another set of things i don't understand is related to a recent discovery that a colleague hates me. and i mean passionately. i mean, to the point where i think they probably have mean nicknames for me when i'm referred to among their friends (which actually isn't hard, since all you need to do is take the g out of my name and you get the word "mean").
i actually sensed it all along -- but for my sources to prove it to me once and for all just leaves me baffled. i guess i just don't totally understand...
... why.
... what triggered it
... why i keep thinking about it
... why it surprises me
it's less the shock value of this particular person that keeps the discovery replaying in my head, and rather the haunting thought that tons more people might be hiding passionate distaste for me, to my complete oblivion.
its a bit unsettling to meander through life thinking you're a relatively nice, likable, easy-going person -- only to find that you apparently made someone's skin crawl.
is it my problem for not noticing? or their problem for being uber-passive aggresive, and never telling me/bringing it to my attention? i would think that if we'd could address it appropriately, then maybe we'd both enjoy our jobs a little more. but i guess that would be too much to ask.
i kind of think that people who carry that much hate in their lives don't WANT to resolve issues -- they get pleasure out of finding a few people to despise. it's like, they're in love with the art of hating.
huh. that's a sad thought.
but clearly i can't do anything to help!
they'd probably spit in my eye.
i guess i'll just go back to being perplexed about trivial things like weather and the quality of produce. everything else seems to make sense in my life -- and i'm very lucky to have someone who loves me as unconditionally as my fiance does. so who cares about immature colleagues?
back to eating these deliciously perplexing strawberries!
posted by megan at
3:32:00 PM
1 Comments:
fascinating! i want to hear more about your hate-filled coworker. office gossip is fascinating.
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