lost hope

so, i have a few days still... but i'm mentally prepping myself for losing the food network contest. i will officially let go of the dream next tuesday, august 15th -- since that marks the "middle of the month" which is when i was told they'd have a winner picked. but... i need to mentally prepare now.

chances must be slim.
i can't imagine we have any hope to win.

as disappointed as i am to admit this, i think it's time that i come to peace with a loss...

i think it's better to ease my way into the idea that they don't ABSOLUTELY LOVE US (i know, hard to imagine! it's nonsensical) than be hit like a truck when they don't call us over the weekend. alas.

but don't worry. our wedding will still be cool! even if it's not in hawaii...